End of 2013 and Beginning of 2014

Everyone updates their status about today. The last day in this year. What’s up with that? One year has passed, and what I’ve been done? Have I done something useful in this year? Hmm, I think I have. In this year, I’ve been opened about my scoliosis, aware more about scoliosis and everybody beside me. That’s I think.

I’ve been through so many life exams. Some I haven’t passed yet. Hey, I’m trying ;)

For this year, the number of my friends is increased, but the number of my enemies is also increased (but not so many).  Forgiving is still a lesson that I’m learning. The first thing is to forgive myself, looks easy maybe, but not everyone can forgive theirself. Some of us end up with blame others or self. I think we deserve a better life, a nice life without any anger or hatred. So why should we waste time for those bad things? :)

As the year passes, I want to leave all those bad things behind. Not to be forgotten, but to be a lesson. Just in case, I need to review my lesson, I have those old pages to open. You know? Like letting a balloon flow away. I love to do it (at Bukit Kubu, Berastagi). Just let it go, it can make us feel better. 

Well, I just found the fact that the world is so small. Mutual friends everywhere without I realized. I always feel good when I can find something mutual between me and my friends. It gives us reason to laugh and share more.

Exploding

Dear Darlaa,

Now I know exactly how people go from stress to stroke. Today I am so stressed, extremely stressed. My brain thinks so hard how to solve these problems. I can feel my head like shaking. OMG. Then I realized maybe I just overthink. But I really can't think any solving. My head is going to explode. I have to stay healthy till the end, because if I get sick, the situation will get worse.

Yesterday, I promised myself to pass a day without complaining anything. I want to have a nice day. But it just makes my head hold everything. Urgghhhhh~ I hate this situation. Life is trying me. Break down? It's absolutely not my alternative. I have to find out the solutions. I should.

It's just a matter of time. Everything gonna be alright after I make it clear.

Merry Christmas :)

Anger and Forgiveness

Darlaa, seems like I have difficulty in control my anger. I mean, emotionally. I will not do something rude physically or verbally when I'm angry. But I have big battle in myself, and I can curse anyone in my mind, the real and deep curse. 

So, I think I have to stop this. I'm too sensitive about anyone I love. If someone hurts the one I love, especially my Mom, in my heart, I had sweared that I will make sure they will feel hurt like my Mom felt, like I felt, even worse, or the worst. I can't control this. Sooner or later, this will be a grudge. I don't wanna myself to be fulled with hatred. I want to live happily and gratefully.

Then I remember Buddha's saying.

Yeah, I feel the same, I get burned slowly. I have to change. I try my best. Take a deep breath and try to forgive, but then my mind flashbacks to their bad. Please forgive me for cursing anyone. I hope I can forgive them sincerely.

A Girl with Scoliosis (Part 8)

Dear bloggers,

Ini hasil rontgen saya pada Maret 2013 yang lalu. Dengan sudut kemiringan 115, jenis severe scoliosis.

Somehow saya berharap sudut kemiringan itu tidak bertambah, tapi saya menyadari bahwa itu tidak mungkin, saya dapat merasakannya, saya semakin sulit bernafas dan mudah merasakan nyeri. Life goes on ! Bertahanlah sebentar lagi tulang belulang ku ! Yeaha~

Itu foto ku tampak dari depan dan belakang. Yah, seperti itulah bentuk punggung seorang scolioser 115 derajat. Next time, kalau kalian punya teman atau kenal dengan seseorang yang punya punggung seperti ini, maybe dia juga punya skoliosis. :)

A Girl With Scoliosis (Part 7)

Heyho  =D

Kembali untuk berbagi info dengan sesama mengenai skoliosis. Sore tadi saya menonton Kick Andy dan berpikir alangkah baiknya kalau mereka bisa menayangkan tentang para Scolioser. Di waktu luang (apalagi tengah malam seperti ini :P) saya suka browsing cerita atau apapun yang berbau skoliosis. Menurut saya, dengan semakin banyaknya info yang kamu ketahui tentang skoliosis, kita akan lebih aware dan berpikir lebih luas.

Sedikit curhat bahwa sebagai seorang scolioser, saya tidak dapat duduk dengan satu posisi apalagi berdiri dalam jangka waktu yang lama. Itu membuat saya merasa pegal, kadang sesak nafas, kadang kesakitan (nyeri). Lalu bagaimana saya menjalani aktivitas saya sehari-hari? Kalau di rumah gampang, saya biasanya lebih suka bermain laptop dalam keadaan telungkup, kadang duduk (di lantai), entah kenapa, duduk di kursi dan mengerjakan sesuatu di meja tidak membuat saya nyaman. Kalau di luar rumah? apalagi kampus. Biasanya saya melakukan stretching kecil, atau saya akan permisi ke kamar kecil dan melakukan stretching sebebas saya. Ketika merasa pegal setelah duduk lama, punggung saya seolah bilang "ayok berbaring! Saya harus lurus sebentar !" Hahaha. Jadi biasanya sepulang rumah sebelum mandi, saya menyempatkan untuk berbaring sebentar, urat-urat rasanya memang seperti tertarik lalu saya akan merasa nyaman kembali. Kalau sudah sangat amat capek, saya perlu berbaring (bukan tidur) seharian. 

Namun saya sering menemui situasi dimana saya harus bertahan dengan pegal-pegal itu, contohnya ketika harus menempuh perjalanan jauh, dari Medan ke Berastagi saja, meskipun hanya duduk, belum lagi kalau duduknya sempit-sempitan, tulang belakang dan pinggang saya terasa kaku dan sakit sekali.Ohya, kami (scolioser) juga sebaiknya tidak duduk atau tidur di tempat yang empuk/lunak, memang sesuatu yang empuk itu nyaman sesaat saja bagi kami, kemudian akan menyiksa. Hahaha. Kalau sudah kelelahan seperti itu, kadang tanpa saya sadari tubuh saya akan membungkuk dengan sendirinya, atau akan semakin miring. Let's be aware ! Kalau ada teman sekitarmu yang skoliosis juga, ingatkan mereka untuk istirahat atau bantu cari solusi. Jangan tertawakan mereka ketika nafas mereka semakin terengah-engah meskipun tidak melakukan kegiatan berat. Kamu tidak merasakan bagaimana sakit yang harus ditahan dan usaha mereka untuk tetap tersenyum.

 

Ohya, dan semakin saya mengetahui banyaknya para scolioser di dunia, khususnya di Indonesia, itu membuat saya merasa lebih baik. Bukannya saya senang ada orang lain yang skoliosis, tapi saya senang bahwa saya tidak sendirian, bahwa ini bukanlah hal yang super abnormal, bahwa ada orang lain yang merasakan hal yang sama dengan saya dan mereka pasti mengerti apa yang saya rasakan sekarang (sebagai scolioser tentunya).

Berikut beberapa orang di Indonesia yang saya ketahui sebagai scolioser juga :)

1. Alyssa Soebandono

Tidak asing dengan nama ini? Iya, dia salah satu artis di Indonesia. Dulu sinetron pertamanya yang saya tonton adalah "Inikah Rasanya" di SCTV. Saya mengetahui cerita skoliosisnya dari salah satu milis skoliosis Indonesia. Di blognya juga dia bercerita mengenai skoliosisnya. Kindly check her blog ;) Blog tersebut merupakan blog pribadinya dan ditulis oleh Alyssa sendiri. Alyssa sekarang masih tetap aktif menjalani dunia akting. Memang derajat kemiringan Alyssa tidak separah punya saya, tapi derajat kemiringan itu hanya sebuah angka dan tingkat keparahan, apa perlu saya menjadikannya sebagai tolak ukur untuk hidup saya? Jawabannya tentu saja T.I.D.A.K ;)

Alyssa Soebandono

2. Indi Sugar Babbit (Indi Sugar Taufik)

Indi merupakan seorang penulis novel "Waktu Aku sama Mika" yang kemudian diangkat menjadi film layar lebar. What a blessing ! Novel tersebut diangkat dari kisah nyata kehidupan Indi sendiri. Novel tersebut bercerita tentang seorang gadis scolioser yang jatuh cinta kepada pemuda pengidap HIV. Di Medan sendiri, baik di Gramedia maupun Disc Tarra, saya masih sulit menemukan novel dan filmnya. Kalau ada yang punya info, mohon kasi tau yaa. I will be so happy. 

Indi saat ini menggunakan brace untuk mencegah pertumbuhan skoliosisnya :) Masih banyak lagi loh novel yang sudah dirilisnya. FYI, Indi baru-baru saja menjalani operasi tumor payudara. Ternyata ditemukan tumor sebesar bola pingpong pada dada sebelah kirinya, untungnya semua berjalan dengan baik. Get well soon, Indi ! You are a courageous woman ! =D

Kalau penasaran, anda bisa mengunjungi blognya duniakecilindi.blogspot.com  atau account twitternya @missbabbitt 

Indi Sugar

Novel Waktu Aku sama Mika

MIKA (diangkat dari Novel Waktu Aku sama Mika)

3. Iin Nur Indah

Iin merupakan salah satu finalis X-Factor Indonesia 2013, dimana di audisinya, Iin menyanyikan lagu "Don't You Remember" -Adele dengan sangat baik. Jujur saya bukan penonton setia X-Factor, saya hanya menonton X-Factor ketika sudah acara final (tersisa 3 orang). Itu pun karena kebetulan nampak saja. Hahaha. Saya mengetahui Iin seorang scolioser ketika saya mencari video tentang scolioser Indonesia di youtube, tiba-tiba bermunculan wajah Iin semua.

 

 Anda dapat menonton video audisinya di link ini http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=OXeXAlKJgGc

Sekian untuk hari ini ! Let's be aware \(^o^)/ Go Scoliosis Awareness ! 


Fera Leo
A Scolioser

Power of Smile

When someone is arguing with you emotionally, and you just respond them calmly and with smile. It makes you like a WINNER. 

Power of Smile ! ;)

Two-Face

If I smile to someone I dislike, it doesn't mean I'm two-face. I'm just mature enough to regulate my emotion.

Mid-Test is O.V.E.R

Yoo Darla~

Like what I said on the title, Mid Test is over ! Although have some trouble on this last day, it's okay. The exam was supposed to be held at 8 a.m, but it is delayed until 2 p.m. Urgghh. Okay, forget about it. Don't ruin this good day with bad mood. LOL. We have gone through these 2 weeks. I am so happy that half of this semester has passed, and half more, I will be in sixth semester.

Best MONDAY

Dear Darlaa,

Today is one of my BEST MONDAY !!!! Let me tell you about that. Okay, today I start my Monday with wake up early, have breakfast with friends at Babura. Wuohoooo~ I'm really happy to eat a lot ! Although I have to face this big tummy -____- It doesn't matter! =D I love eating. Eating happily and no worries.

We have so much fun for this morning. I laughed a lot. Should a life be like this ? Then at the evening I have my class, teaching class I mean. I also have a lot of fun with my students. For telling you the truth, I was so stressed after teaching before. Today I try really really really hard to change my mindset. I truly believe with the power of mindset, because my mind determines my behavior. I swear, it really hard for me. I even download some Monday quotes for my motivation, keep repeating them to myself. As a teacher, I want the best for my students. Not only teaching, but act as a warm-hearted Mom. :)

Happy Monday \(^o^)/

Smile and Sunshine

Hey Darlaa,

I'm back. Another random post. Hahahaha. The quiet girl has the loudest mind. Maybe that's me.

Today I went to Sun Plaza and found out that Alta Moda held "SALE ALL ITEMS 50%" !!!!! Wuohooooooo~ The true heaven is coming to town ! I immediately announce it via BBM, and make schedule to go there again with Mom. Yeah yeah yeah. Life is going to be more amazing with "SALE 50%". Okay, I'm not a shopaholic. I just love "Discount", everyone does.

In my last post, I said that I'm still twenty, and have a long time. Yes, I have. How about my Mom? Last evening, Mom got up from her nap and continued her sewing with "Aiyah, how long I have to do this". I think, think, and think. The matter is "I THINK I STILL HAVE TIME". Mom will not be able to wait for so long. I have to do something soon. Surviving is not enough, I have to do more. But what?!? My back limits me from working hard. Sometimes I say "sh*t", then all the positive advices pop out in my mind. Trust me, if you know someone that always do positive thinking, maybe he/she comes from the most negative thinking person.

For now, things that I can do, is always supporting Mom and making her smile through these all. I'm not saying we are having hard time, but we DO need better life than this. We, I mean we ALL deserve the best thing in life. Smile, the most little thing that I can give to Mom. 

Ah, nowadays, I really like Sunshine. I'm not afraid of being darker, but also I can't stand for extreme hot of course. LOL. Sunshine makes everything brighter and feel more comfort. Ah, you must not know, I'm really good in doing massage. I love giving Mom massage after a long day.. Sometimes I also need massages, but it's impossible to ask my sis or mom. They have worked for a day. So I prefer lying on bed. I will like to spend time with Mom in reflexiology, but usually they don't massage well.

Mom is going to have her birthday on December 14 ! We are planning a surprise for her. I want to give her something, that are kinda refreshing, and warm-hearted, instead of something expensive.

November #RandomPost

Dear Darlaa,

Trust me or not, I always have mood to write or blog at mid-night. My brain is trully active at this hour. In my last holiday, I have tried my best to live in healthier way. But when I have started my new semester, everything backs to nature. LOL. I call it nature, because I am used to stay awake until mid-night since I was a kid. I remembered when I was a kid, I did my homework slowly with Sis, Dad always went home at late night, Mom did her sewing also until midnight. We had a great time playing and talking random things. Sometimes Dad could take me going outside by his motorbike, bought fried rice or anything else. Sometimes we watched film together until morning, then when I woke up, I was on my bed already. And sometimes, we argued and hated each other....

Talking about Dad, won't make me cry at all. Sometimes I mention my Dad because deeply I miss him so bad. But reading my last post about Dad's funeral, remind me of all the sadness of those days. Then I realize that, life goes on. I never forget about Dad. I just accept the fact that Dad had gone, even Dad was still alive, he will never ever want her daughter to be sad. I always tell myself and repeat it,

"It's okay to feel down and cry. But never forget to lift your head to the sky, and smile brightly. Life goes on, with or without you."

Okay, now finish about Dad. Err. I think no, maybe still have to mention Dad. Sorry Dad. But I think you will be happy for me that always remember of you. My Dad liked to be popular.

Randomly, I think about marriage. I passed, and saw so many love relationship broken for the same reasons. As you know, My Mom and Dad also divorced. I don't have any real life modelling that show me true & longlasting love is exist. One question pops out in my mind. Does a man that we called "true love" really exist?

Back to nature, deep inside, I truly believe Cinderella's story. Then reality slaps me, this is real life, not tales. My heart is prepared and trained to face heart-breaking, to be strong woman. My heart will be frozen. LOL. At the other side, I think why don't I prepare my heart to love everyone? Warm to everyone, but it means that we take higher risk to get hurt. Once again, intern-conflict and self-talk. LOL

Today I met Lena. Talk about future and friendship. Someone said that she/he never wants to share his/her private life to anyone, include her/his lover. Why? Because sharing can relieve your feeling for a while, but your whole life, you will be anxious whether your friend tells your story to others or not. I think, that's right. Some people can't keep secret. But what's the meaning of keeping your secret for a whole life? If there's something of your private life that maybe inspire someone or a life lesson, why not? Trust and betray are kinda part of life. Betrayal, lies, hurt, don't make me hurt anymore like the first time. I'm lucky to have some VVIP in my life that I can trust. :)

And the last thing I want to share is, about carreer. I'm planning for my future. I think Medan is not secure to live anymore. I have plan to move to another country. It means, I need really big budget. I'm still twenty. I have so much chance to work harder and harder. I start to confuse what profession that I will take. I am studying Psychology, but do I really want to be a Psychologist ? I like to doing online shop and marketing, but is it really my passion? I love to writing novel, but I haven't written any finished-story for last 2 years. Am I really good at writing fiction?

Somehow, I'm type of person that value social things so much better than money. Yes, we can't live without money. Yes, it's more comfortable to cry in BMW than on bicycle. But how if the choice is crying alone or having some friends to share. I always put "Social" in my first priority. I've ever thought about being a social worker. I will live happily with help people. Then what can I use to buy food for me and my mom??? *toeng* right? Good income, favorite job.. How can I get both? Some experts say, follow your passion, then wealthy will follow you. What is truly my passion? Still a homework for me.

That's all I can share. Friends, family, love, and carreer. Fighting everyone !

Dealing

Hey Darlaa,

I'm having my mid-test week. But  I think I don't try that hard to get good marks. Haha. Well, I don't know the cause, recently I often feel pain at my middle-back. I don't have any busy activities, I teach only a few class. I don't sit down for a long time because of studying. I don't mean to complain about this pain... I just need to share about it. 

Last morning, Mom discussed with my cousins about doing surgery for my back. It's kinda funny that I'm trying hard to persuade my Mom. Mom is still the same, worry too much. I don't blame Mom at all. Although I have to face how people stare at my hump, I don't mind. I can't lie that I always feel no confidence or overthink when people look at my hump. I just need to head up and keep smiling. If I pretend it's okay, it will be, right?

I decide to live fully. I don't want to waste my time for giving up like a moron. It can't be avoided that sometimes I feel down, sometimes I wanna give up. But I know, I have a choice to live happily, live fully. Everyone does. So, is there any reason to live in dark? :)

Hey Monday, You Try Me

Dear Darlaa,

Heyhoo~ This October becomes my new challenge. I officially has been an English teacher. Maybe for some people, this is not a great story to tell. But for me, it's kinda a new chapter of my life. I know exactly that I am difficult to adapt in a new sociality. At the previous job, I needed year to socialize with my workmates. In my college, I need  a year to socialize with my friends. With the people I know very well, I can be so talkative, then if I am with the strangers, I can be totally quiet. I think everyone had passed facet like this, the difference is just the time. I need longer time. 

As an English teacher, I have to be active and assertive with anyone that involved in my class. Once again, I have to try my best. Maybe everything hasn't been alright yet, I'm sure as long as I try my best, everything gonna be alright =D Yeah, sometimes before the class, I feel anxiety attacks. LOL. But it is so fun when you can finish something that you are afraid of. The other side of myself, is of course, want to run as far as possible, and the other side says that "You have to face it!" The intern battle and self-talk help me a lot.

Today, Monday, is a tough day. Then so what? I have Candy Crush to have fun with, Mom and friends to share my story, internet to browsing, and so many thing else. Good luck for everyone that is trying a new thing in your life !!!

BBU

*BIG HUG*

Grateful

Dear God,

Thanks for an Amazing Mom ! I don't know if I can survive without her or not. It's just like I wanna hug my mother tightly everyday. =D

Sincerely,

a daughter

Time Flies, People Change

How about me? Do I change?

A Girl with Scoliosis (part 6)

Hei bloggers ! What's up?

Ini hasil browsing-an saya beberapa waktu yang lalu. Beberapa foto dan quotes yang menggambarkan isi hati dan pikiran saya, atau bahkan para scolioser lainnya. =D

 

10 things you shouldn't say to someone with scoliosis

 Ini salah satu hal yang membuat saya ingin mengatakan "Yeah, seharusnya setiap orang pernah membaca ini!" Sepuluh hal yang tidak seharusnya anda katakan kepada seseorang yang memiliki scoliosis :

1. Duduk yang tegak !

    Hal ini pernah saya rasakan ketika saat masih duduk di bangku sekolah, salah seorang teman mengatakan kepada saya untuk berdiri tegak terus. Saya saat itu masih tidak tahu saya menderita skoliosis. Dan saya menjadi sedih dan merasa bentuk badan saya aneh kejadian ini.

2. Berhenti membungkuk

    Hal ini terjadi ketika saya sedang menikmati acara jalan-jalan saya bersama Mama. Lalu berpapasan dengan salah seorang teman Mama dan mereka mengobrol, teman Mama memperhatikan saya dan berkata "Kenapa anak kamu membungkuk terus?" Rasanya tidak enak sekali, saya hanya tersenyum.

3.  Tidak akan sesakit itu.

    Saya pernah mengalami nyeri hebat karena skoliosis ini, hingga saya demam, badan lemas dan wajah pucat. Saya bahkan harus absen dari kuliah dan kerja karena nyeri itu. Namun, ada seseorang yang mengetahui alasan absen saya karena nyeri skoliosis ini, dan mengatakan "Memangnya sesakit itu?" Yah, saya hanya bisa tersenyum lagi. Dia tidak pernah mengalaminya, jadi bukan salahnya jika dia tidak mengerti.

4. "Ew, punggung kamu kenapa?"

    Yah, luckily belum pernah ada yang mengatakan hal seperti ini kepada saya. Anda tahu yang salahnya dimana? Bukan masalah jika seseorang bertanya mengenai punggung saya. Coba perhatikan "ew" nya, itu seolah perasaan jijik dan ngeri. Kami memang berbeda, tapi kami bukan monster.

5. "Yah, saya mengerti. Kadang punggung saya juga sakit"

    Anda tidak mengerti ! Ini bukan nyeri punggung biasa karena lelah. Saya merasakan nyeri seolah syaraf-syaraf saya tertarik dan saya kesulitan bernafas. Kadang bahkan nyerinya datang mendadak, dan saya tetap bertingkah seolah tidak terjadi apa-apa.

6. Physical therapy is easy!

    Cobalah menjadi salah satu scolioser, jalani terapi physical barulah berkomentar.

7. It's all in your head.

8. Kamu mungkin hanya perlu lebih aktif

    Saya menjadi harus lebih selektif dalam memilih kegiatan saya karena stamina yang terbatas. Saya biasanya malas mengomentari orang seperti ini, dan hanya tersenyum dengan "Saya punya prioritas tersendiri dalam hidup saya".

9. Kamu tidak akan punya semua masalah ini jika postur tubuh mu tidak begini.

   Ya, saya tahu hal ini. Ini hanya masalah saya perlu lebih bersyukur lagi. Ada yang bisa menjanjikan bahwa saya pasti akan hidup bahagia jika saya tidak mengalami skoliosis ini? Bahwa saya akan bertemu dengan segudang orang baik-baik ini dalam hidup saya? Bahwa saya akan mendapatkan teman-teman hebat seperti yang sekarang? Jawabannya, T-I-D-A-K. Tidak ada seorang pun yang bisa menjanjikan saya untuk hidup lebih baik jika saya tidak melalui skoliosis ini. Keep positive!

10. Kamu selalu sakit.

      Ya, saya memang sering sakit. Daya tahan tubuh saya memang lemah. So, what? Meskipun saya sering sakit, toh saya bisa membuktikan, saya selalu bisa berusaha sebaik mungkin. Saya sudah melihat banyak orang dengan tubuh yang sehat, tetapi memilih untuk menyerah dan berpangku tangan. Saya bahkan merasa lebih sehat daripada orang-orang yang berpangku tangan itu.

  

 Live positively !

Fera Leo,
A Scolioser

Another Semester

Hi Darlaa !

I'm having my fifth semester now ^^ Seems it will be harder than previous semester. But I'm so happy that it means I have 3 semesters left to go. YEAH !!!! The first three weeks drives me so crazily. There is a homework that make me slept only for one hour. Huoooh, lack of sleep is being the main theme of September. 

Ah ! I'm also happy for being in the same group with this girls. The battles of homework, the presentation challenges. Everything is fun although we have to pass this hard time =D Keep smiling !

 Ohyeah, I want to tell you, Mom is hard to remember my friends' name, so I always mention my friends' name with their story. Puspa is known as the one who just came back from holiday in Japan. Vilya is known as the English teacher. Chindy and Fonds are known with their address. =D

Me and Puspa

Vilya, Me, Chindy and Fonds

A Girl with Scoliosis (Part 5)

Hai :)

Terima kasih untuk teman-teman yang telah bersedia membaca cerita skoliosis saya. Hari demi hari berlalu, banyak hal yang berubah.

Beberapa teman telah membaca cerita skoliosis saya dan mendukung saya sepenuhnya untuk melakukan operasi. Setiap saya membahas hal ini dengan Mama, Mama akan mulai meneteskan air mata dan mengatakan, "Bagaimana jadinya bila terjadi sesuatu dengan dirimu? Aku tak akan tau harus berbuat apa". Seberapa keras saya berusaha meyakinkan Mama bahwa saya akan baik-baik saja, pembicaraan ini tetap berakhir dengan air mata dan kekhawatiran. 

Awalnya saya berpikir mungkin tidak akan apa-apa bila saya memang harus pergi lebih cepat, tapi tidak! Saya merubah cara berpikir ini. Saya tidak boleh melupakan bahwa masih sangat banyak orang yang sangat menyayangi saya. Saya akan terluka bila melihat orang yang saya sayangi terluka, begitu juga yang mereka rasakan. Saya tidak ingin ada yang sedih karena saya, apalagi karena skoliosis ini. Bila saya bisa hidup normal, saya bisa bekerja lebih keras untuk mendapatkan hidup yang lebih baik bagi Mama. Hidup ini pilihan, ketika kita punya pilihan yang lebih baik, kenapa harus melihat ke pilihan lain yang hanya membuat kita sedih?

Saya akan rajin berusaha meyakinkan Mama hingga air mata itu bukan lagi menjadi masalah bagi kami. Saya berjanji pada diri sendiri akan berusaha untuk mencari jalan keluar. Ohya, sudahkah saya memberitahu anda bahwa saya telah berhenti dari pekerjaan saya, dan rasa nyeri tersebut semakin berkurang seiring berjalannya waktu :D Yohooo~ Sekarang saya juga sudah hidup lebih sehat dan memperhatikan gaya hidup yang baik. Ayo hidup sehat !

Beberapa jam yang lalu, saya memulai kegiatan browsing saya dengan menonton salah satu video di youtube. Ini video yang sangat bagus ! Saya akan sangat senang bila anda meluangkan sedikit waktu untuk menontonnya.

1. Yang Pei

Yang Pei adalah seorang wanita China yang tidak memiliki kedua lengan. Dia kehilangan lengannya saat berumur 9 tahun karena tidak sengaja menyentuh kabel listrik bertegangan tinggi yang mengakibatkan kedua lengannya harus diamputasi. Yang Pei memiliki keahlian menyulam dengan kedua kakinya, dia bahkan sanggup hidup mandiri dengan kedua kakinya. Yang Pei sangat cantik dan ceria. Dia melalui banyak masa sulit. Lalu Yang Pei mengikuti China Dream Show yang mengubah hidupnya. :)

Bila video diatas tidak dapat diputar, silahkan buka www.youtube.com dan masukkan keyword "China Dream Show Yang Pei".

2. Katelyn

Katelyn adalah remaja Amerika, sama seperti saya, dia juga seorang Scolioser. Katelyn telah menjalani operasinya dan yah, saya merasa takut ketika melihat meja operasi di video tersebut, melihat bagaimana jahitan-jahitan pasca operasi tersebut. Tapi bukan itu yang penting, melainkan bagaimana Katelyn melalui semua itu. Kita hanya butuh keberanian, keberanian untuk melalui saat-saat yang sulit. Then everything will be alright. Thanks Katelyn :) 

Katelyn's Scoliosis Story

3. Brittney

Brittney juga sama seperti saya dan Katelyn, scolioser. Brittney telah melakukan operasinya pada usia 13 tahun. Ohya, Brittney itu seorang pemain baseball wanita. Keren bukan? Saya sangat iri melihat kegigihan Brittney. Akankah saya memiliki hal tersebut? Anda akan melihat foto pernikahan Brittney pada akhir video, that's so sweet >.< Videonya tidak bisa ditampilkan di blog ini, tapi Anda bisa melihatnya dengan klik di SINI.

Tiga orang yang saya sebutkan tadi hanya segelintir orang yang berhasil melalui saat-saat sulit dalam hidupnya. Masih banyak sekali nama orang yang belum saya sebutkan.

Saya mungkin berbeda, tapi itu tidak berarti saya buruk.

Hidup mungkin tidak mudah dijalani, tapi itu tidak berarti hidup ini sulit.

Setiap orang berhak untuk menangis ketika sedih.

Ingatlah wajah-wajah orang yang kita sayangi, lalu tersenyumlah.

Lalu segalanya akan terasa lebih mudah.

Fera Leo

A Scolioser