WHAT SHOULD I DO?

When I have broken someone’s trust

When I can’t do nothing to fix it

When I was trapped between my mom’s or my friend’s urgency

Dear Darlaa,

I never did it purposely. I feel so sorry about this. Deeply sad because trapped in this situation. What should I do? Everything got misunderstood. I lost one of my friends. I just can’t this happen to my friends else. Argh. Somehow I wish to disappear right now right here. Any explanations will not do. Sorry dear. If only you know, I never never never mean to hurt you at all. I’m sad we end up blaming like this. I’m so sad we end up talking uncomfortly like this. Deep inside my heart, I feel so guilty making you in a hard situation, a hard position. If I can give you a knife to kill me right now, I would do. 

No words can describe well how I’m feeling right now. I’m not begging you to understand my position. I just hope everything back to normal. Since I try my best to not give any explanation, for you, it will be an excuse only, and everything will go worse. I can’t losing more than this. Losing one friend, and a trust, are too much for me. 

I'm not that strong. Bathroom is the best escape for me. With the tap turned on, noone will know what happen inside.