CNY 2014 : The Horse

Hi Darlaaa !

Happy Chinese New Year !!! 

This year is horse year, I don't know exactly what kind of horse this is. LOL. I welcomed this new year so gratefully instead of happily. The difference between this CNY and last CNY is, there is no Dad, and my country, Indonesia is deeply sad because of natural disasters. The Sinabung eruption, flooding in Jakarta and Manado. Last year, CNY was a celebration for me. This year, CNY is a family gathering. I have learned that family needs to gather, even with or without purpose. CNY is a time when I think my family can gather happily and share what we missed for a long time. I wanna celebrate it gratefully.

When we still have time to talk to each other,

When we still can smile to each other,

When all the family members sit together for dinner,

When we can take photo together with a smile,

Why we aren't grateful for that time?

I remember when Daddy passed away, before his cremation, we all (his wives, daughters, and sons) take picture together as the photographer asked us to do that. The face of sadness, lost, and regret. Why? Why should we wait until the last meeting to take pict together? Why should we wait until that sad moment? If Dad were still alive, and everyone could control self(s), would we take pict together with a smile? Would everyone let him go without regret?

I don't want it to happen again. It's enough to hate each other. It's enough to blame each other. 

Family is family. I accept the fact that not everyone can tolerance my flaws. We don't need to throw something broke, but we need to fix it. I'm trying to fix my family, starting from myself.  :)

Happy CNY everyone ! Gong Xi Fa Cai ! or usually we say, KIONG HI !