Darlaa, seems like I have difficulty in control my anger. I mean, emotionally. I will not do something rude physically or verbally when I'm angry. But I have big battle in myself, and I can curse anyone in my mind, the real and deep curse.
So, I think I have to stop this. I'm too sensitive about anyone I love. If someone hurts the one I love, especially my Mom, in my heart, I had sweared that I will make sure they will feel hurt like my Mom felt, like I felt, even worse, or the worst. I can't control this. Sooner or later, this will be a grudge. I don't wanna myself to be fulled with hatred. I want to live happily and gratefully.
Then I remember Buddha's saying.
Yeah, I feel the same, I get burned slowly. I have to change. I try my best. Take a deep breath and try to forgive, but then my mind flashbacks to their bad. Please forgive me for cursing anyone. I hope I can forgive them sincerely.
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