Countless Blessing

Tidak semua anugerah datang dengan dibungkus kertas kado. Beberapa dibungkus dengan kertas koran, atau bahkan kertas bekas. Tapi itu tidak berarti itu bukan anugerah. Bahkan, beberapa kado terbaik dari Tuhan datang dengan bungkusan yang usang.

-Merry Riana-

Sometimes things don’t work out well. Yeah, it’s true. Some plans in my life runs not like what I expected, but it doesn’t mean my life is ruined. I need to adjust myself and my expectations according to current situation. For telling you the truth, I expected to graduate in this August. Some troubles come out and try me. Then suddenly me lecturer asked me to join a scientific seminar at my university to give a presentation of my research. I was out of blue. Thinking of my defense table has already made me dying. In my defense table day, I’m going to give a presentation in front of three lecturers from my department. How about this scientific seminar again? Many lecturers and many researchers took participated. The first time I got this news, I didn’t know whether to be happy or nervous. The fact is, I was extremely happy and extremely shocked. My body even trembled. What a stupid.

The deadline was closed. I tried to prepare my slides as simple as possible, but I keep it interesting. Although I have fear with public speaking, I always feel satisfied whenever I overcome this fear. I practiced many times to put my words together. My lecturer gave me a hand by checking and fixing a few parts of my slides. Thank you, bu Diah ^^

Here’s the day. 19^th August 2015. Well, I put on eyeliners to make myself a little bit more confident. I was very very very nervous. The room is not as big as I think, but still, the presenters and the professors kinda made me trembling. Hahaha. I don’t even know how many time I took a deep breath to calm myself. When it was my turn, I shouted loudly inside “Aaaaaaaaaaa”. When my slides were opened, a professor asked, “What is scoliosis?” I calmly said that I will explained it in my presentation. I did my presentation calmly without trembling. OMG. I was proud of myself. I usually have my hand trembling at the beginning of presentation no matter I have done many presentations in 4 years. I think I have changed, or it is because of the practices I did. I was so happy that everyone paid attention to my presentation.  My voice was stabile using the microphone. I usually don’t like to use mic because my voice can be super loud.  At the end of my presentation, I remind everyone in the room to raise awareness of scoliosis. Right after I finished my words, I could hear applauses. I received many positive feedbacks. It was absolutely a great moment. I couldn’t stop smiling like a stupid. Lol.

I was amazed. If I weren’t a scolioser, I don’t think I will never ever take this step. Giving a public speaking about my scoliosis was never in my mind since I hated my scoliosis that much. When I try to change and be more open about it, I feel like my life has also been changed. People offer me a hand for my treatment. I have more sincere friends.  I even dare to use scoliosis as my final research paper. If I didn’t dare, I will never get this chance.  It doesn’t matter I will win or not. I’ve tried to bring out the best of me. Of course there are many people who can do far better than me. Life never stops at one point. I can keep learning ^^ Thank you God.

Btw, after finished my presentation, I went back to my faculty and meet Fonds. Today was also her Yudisium day. Yudisium is a kind of graduation celebration in our faculty ^^ Congratulation my dear. I am happy to see you in that black-white suit. Wait to see you on your graduation day!