Dealing

Hey Darlaa,

I'm having my mid-test week. But  I think I don't try that hard to get good marks. Haha. Well, I don't know the cause, recently I often feel pain at my middle-back. I don't have any busy activities, I teach only a few class. I don't sit down for a long time because of studying. I don't mean to complain about this pain... I just need to share about it. 

Last morning, Mom discussed with my cousins about doing surgery for my back. It's kinda funny that I'm trying hard to persuade my Mom. Mom is still the same, worry too much. I don't blame Mom at all. Although I have to face how people stare at my hump, I don't mind. I can't lie that I always feel no confidence or overthink when people look at my hump. I just need to head up and keep smiling. If I pretend it's okay, it will be, right?

I decide to live fully. I don't want to waste my time for giving up like a moron. It can't be avoided that sometimes I feel down, sometimes I wanna give up. But I know, I have a choice to live happily, live fully. Everyone does. So, is there any reason to live in dark? :)

Hey Monday, You Try Me

Dear Darlaa,

Heyhoo~ This October becomes my new challenge. I officially has been an English teacher. Maybe for some people, this is not a great story to tell. But for me, it's kinda a new chapter of my life. I know exactly that I am difficult to adapt in a new sociality. At the previous job, I needed year to socialize with my workmates. In my college, I need  a year to socialize with my friends. With the people I know very well, I can be so talkative, then if I am with the strangers, I can be totally quiet. I think everyone had passed facet like this, the difference is just the time. I need longer time. 

As an English teacher, I have to be active and assertive with anyone that involved in my class. Once again, I have to try my best. Maybe everything hasn't been alright yet, I'm sure as long as I try my best, everything gonna be alright =D Yeah, sometimes before the class, I feel anxiety attacks. LOL. But it is so fun when you can finish something that you are afraid of. The other side of myself, is of course, want to run as far as possible, and the other side says that "You have to face it!" The intern battle and self-talk help me a lot.

Today, Monday, is a tough day. Then so what? I have Candy Crush to have fun with, Mom and friends to share my story, internet to browsing, and so many thing else. Good luck for everyone that is trying a new thing in your life !!!

BBU

*BIG HUG*

Grateful

Dear God,

Thanks for an Amazing Mom ! I don't know if I can survive without her or not. It's just like I wanna hug my mother tightly everyday. =D

Sincerely,

a daughter