Grateful March

Hi Darlaa,

March. It's such a grateful month. Although, I get a lot of assignments, I am so grateful. 

On this Saturday, I have a chance to meet Merry Riana. One of my favorite motivators. It's really good to know that she will come to Medan. Then, this month, I have to make some decisions. My backache is getting worse, and I finally decide to meet doctors again. For this long time, I never want to meet the doctor, the answer they will give is "surgery". I don't like that, it looks like I don't have any hope beside surgery. I know, I looks like escaping. But, in some points, I still believe there is a way.

Now I feel the pain more frequently, especially at the night. Sometimes the pain also comes at the day, and I will groan silently in the bathroom or when no one see. At the night, I usually bite my pillow and cry silently when the pain comes. I don't like Mom catch me when I'm crying. Mom will be so sad. I can't live with this pain for all my life, so I decide to meet doctor to discuss how to handle this pain. Maybe tomorrow I will do. I'm not saying that I will do the surgery, let's see how it will be later. Stay relax beibehh.

For telling you the truth, I'm more afraid the consultation will be expensive rather than afraid of the surgery. Hahahaa.. My salary is not that big, so I usually think deeply before I use money. I just wanna be financially free from my parents. At this age, I think that I should not bother Mom or Dad with my financial problems anymore.

 

Look at the bright side. Daddy now goes home more frequently. I like that. Daddy also worries about my spine. I'm not saying I'm happy looking Daddy is worrying about me. But I'm happy to know that Daddy still care about me. ^^ Thanks Mom and Dad :* I Love You. Don't worry too much. Your daughter is stronger than she looks ^^

Fighting !