Meet Up with Girls

Hi ! Another post for this holiday.

I met up with Vivian and Mariana. Actually Angeline, Delviana, and Fona were supposed to join us, but they weren't able to. It's a long time I don't meet them. The last time I met them maybe in last semester holiday, or maybe last two semester holiday. OMG. I can't remember. We talked a lot and couldn't stop sharing. We have our lunch at Resep Nenek Moyangku then ice cream at Mc Donalds, MW. Sure I hope next time we can meet up again, with complete members ;)

Kelas Ibadah Remaja 27-29 Juli 2014

Hey Darla,

Long time no see. I’m having my holiday. Well, one month of my holiday passed already and I have 1 month left. Last Saturday, I joined a class at temple not far from my house. That is a class that taught morality, and I have amazing 3 days there ! I really mean it, A-MA-ZING ! I went there with one of my seniors. Okay, this post will be very long. So, prepare your eyes if you want to read it. ^^

We arrived on Saturday night. I get a vegetarian Bakpao to eat before sleep. I met a lot of new friends there. I shared my room with another 8 girls. We are 9, in room number 9. Some are younger, older, and some are as old as me. That was my first time to meet them. Really a new situation for me. To be honest, I was really really really excited for that event. I couldn’t stop smiling to welcome that event. 

We introduced ourselves, arranged our stuff near bed, without talk too much, we went to bed and sleep. We slept earlier because we would have outdoor activities next day. Then on Sunday, after having breakfast, we went to Brastagi ! The most enjoyable city in North Sumatera ! First we had so many games at Taman Jubileum. I love fresh air. Then til about 2 pm, we continued our trip to Hillpark. We have 2 hours free to play there. Two hours are a little bit short time. We took some pictures, played some adventures there. I have played Puting Beliung, Roller Coaster, Biang Lala, Bom Bom Car, and the one I forgot the name. My unforgotten adventure is the roller coaster one. I don’t have the courage to sit at the first row. My friend, Yanti asked me to sit at the first row with her. I am not brave enough. So, I had my seat at the third row with Indah. I hold my safety belt with my left hand, then hold the safety stick very very strongly.We took a deep breath before the roller coaster started. Me and Indah shout a lot. We closed our eyes tightly. LOL. The safety belt is not really tight or maybe I’m the one who is so skinny. I felt like the roller coaster shake my body very strongly when turn left or right. It’s my first time to have roller coaster with a new friend. Indah is very funny. All the students took pict together before going back. We had a really great day. As we got back to temple, we took a bath, dinner, and shared our feelings about that day. We slept at 9 or 10 pm. Actually, I really seldom sleep early, I usually sleep at 12 a.m the earliest. Lol. But I can adjust myself very well. 

Group 2

Our Theme Song: One Heart. But there were so many hearts. LOL

Our Group Logo

Indah, Acien, Novita, Yanti, and Me

Acien, Novita, Yanti, and Me ^^

Thanks to ci Vera for taking our pict !

Ah, I forgot to tell you. About 5 p.m, we are not allowed to use our phone anymore. Our phones are kept by our mentor. Sure I could do it. I don’t depend too much on my phone.

The 2^nd day.

I got up at 6 a.m. Take a bath then breakfast. We had a long class on this 2^nd day. The people there were so nice. They prepared us a snack before lunch, so we didn’t get hungry at all. Thank you very much. I had back pain because of sitting too long. We sit from 8 a.m. to 5 p.m. Of course with break time. But I could deal with my back pain well. We listened to Dhammadesana from some seniors. They did it very well. I understand what they mean. They also gave us a vegetarian sandwich before dinner. 

What I learn from Dhammadesana are:

1. We all are special. We have to realize that everyone is special.
2. No matter what problems we face, we still have to be thankful. There was a story that the speaker told us. There was a naughty boy who never listened to his parents. His mother never stopped trying to advice him and help him to go back to the right way. Some day, the boy changed. He thanked to his mother that always stay by side and never stop trying. He said to his father, “You have been our umbrella which always protects us. Now, you can take a rest, and let me be the umbrella which will protect you and mom.” That is a really touching story for me. It reminds me of Mom and Dad. When I have problem and ask for their help, they will not think twice to help and do everything for me no matter how hard their life is. Now I have grown, and I want to share my parents’ burden. I always think, let me be the one who take the burden.
3. Understand and forgive. We have to understand people’s shoes why they did that to you. Understand how they feel and think. So no matter what they do, you can forgive them because you understand why they did it. When I want to forgive someone, I have to be able to understand them first. When I make mistake and someone can’t forgive me, you can’t blame anyone. Because It’s hard to understand. So It’s not easy to forgive. Me, myself also experience that forgiving is not that easy.

After Dhammadesana, we then watched movie together. I AM SAM. That’s the movie. I watched it already. But this time I don’t know why the film could more touching. It’s a about a girl having a mental retarded father. According to Department of Child Care, the father (Sam) were not able to take care of his 7-years-old daughter (Lucy). Since Sam’s intellectual capability is same as 7 years old child, he would not be able to take care of Lucy who will grow to 8 years girl. Although Lucy was just 7, she said that she didn’t want any Daddy but Sam. Other Daddy never accompany their child to field, but her Daddy always did it. At the end of this movie, we were asked, “What do you learn from this movie?”  

Lucy was just 7, and she could accept and love her Dad unconditionally regardless how her Dad's condition is.  I am older than Lucy but still, sometimes I behave more childish than her. My mom and Dad are not perfect. If a-7-y.o-girl could love her retarded Dad, why I can't love my smart parents fully. That's what I think. So, I have to be more more and more grateful, and love my parents more.

The 3rd day

Here is our last day. Finally I would get back to my comfy home. For telling the truth, I was sad a bit to apart from my new friends. We are just like a family, used to be together in these 3 days. I make sure I have their contact like BBM, line, or instagram. We made sushi on this day ! Yes, sushi ! I love this cooking class.I made 3 rolls of sushi. But only one succeeded. Hehehe. Somehow, I like cooking ! I brought some to home, so Mom and Sis could taste my sushi. We were reminded that parents always want to give us the most delicious food. So, give the best sushi you made for your parents. Aw <3 We sang a song together, then saying goodbye to each other. Will miss them so much. 

My Handmade Sushi (photo taken by sis)

I enjoyed my 3 days very very very very very much ! I'm waiting for the class next year !!!

My Favourite Anime

Hi Darla !

In this post, I will share about my favorite anime and manga. I'm not a mania. But I just like some, which is not up to date. Hehehe ^^

1. Inuyasha

Inuyasha has been my favorite anime since I was in junior. Eh, no, since primary ! Hahaha.. I wonder how inuyasha can be so cool. Compare to other modern anime, inuyasha may be out of date. But everytime I watch or re-watch inuyasha, my feeling is still same. Inuyasha is somehow a stubborn and reckless boy, and kagome is just a great girl I admire. Before I like inuyasha, I preferred Sesshomaru, Inuyasha's brother. Then I watch it further, Inuyasha sure is cooler. LOL

What I like from this anime? Hmm, the story is so cool. Time journey. Then, I always laugh when Inuyasha and Kagome fight. They look funny, but inside they care each other. Inuyasha always protects Kagome with all his heart. Aw ! Kinda melted. LOL.

I'd try to sketch that picture, but I fail to draw their faces. Then I forgot where I put that sketch. I miss it. I put so much effort T.T


2. Bokura Ga Ita

For your information, Bokura Ga Ita is available in anime and manga. I only watch the anime until ep 18, and continue to manga because I can't find the disc for next episod anymore. I like the theme song "Kimi Dake O" & "Aishiteru". There is a lyrics saying, "Love. It isn't about the unhappy tears that go along with it. Those tears only hurt and leave my eyes dry."

 I learn not to cry because of love from that lyrics. The girl character, Nana, in this story is a always happy and cute girl. Yeah, every girl in anime is always cute. The pictures are also good.

who is the person you love right now? Tagline of Nana when the boy left her.

How sweet they are >_<

3. 24 Colours

 This is just one-book manga. So it doesn't have so much sequel. What I like from this manga is, the story is just a simple story, but they can tell me the feeling so strongly.

As usual, the story is about high school students. The boy is about to move to another school. Both of them are painter. One day, the girl entered the boy's studio and found out that all pictures are rugby red flower. The boy explained that he couldn't think of anything else but those rugby red flowers since he met the girl. Okay, this manga also makes me melted. At the end of semester, they have to make their own painting. You know what they paint? I bet you will like it!

The left picture (a girl) is the boy's painting. Huaaaaa~ Extremely sweet. I tried to draw like that, but totally failed. Maybe because I'm a girl. Lol. Then the right picture (boy) is the girl's painting ! That is the point of view when they first met !!!!! So sweet. In my drawing final test, senior high, I draw the right picture. Yes, I can make it ! Exactly the same drawing, and the same shading. I like it very very very much. But I can't my find sketchbook anymore. T.T My friends also liked it, but my teacher just give me 80 or 85. Okay, fine! Hahaha.

4. Angel Lip

Angel Lip is 9-books mangam which is about a lipstick that can give more confidence to someone. A magic lipstick ! There is a girl named Mikina that once was a model when she was a kid. But one day, she got laughed by everyone and she has social phobia. Until she becomes a teenager, she never ever wants to go back to modelling anymore. Then angel lip changes everything, it comes to Mikina and makes her so confidence in front of camera. A great motivation manga, I think.

 

 

That's all darla ! If you look closely, my fav manga/anime are all about love, confidence, and happiness. Maybe I like them because I found the similarities between me and the main character. I like to draw manga, but of course my drawing skill is sure doubtful. I only can imitate from manga, and draw well when I have feeling. Lol. Let me show you some of my drawing next time ! First is to find my sketchbook ! Lol. Seeyaa!

You can't stop the waves, but you can learn how to surf

Dear Darla,

Today. I learnt to be better, to have more openness to anyone. I never did this before so fast. But I met someone today. A friend. She has a same case with me. My family case I mean. Almost same but in different way. I just feel like, “hey ! I got a new sibling!” Before we met, we are just strangers to each other. We just talked for few hours, and I can tell everything to her. Still 5% not yet. But it is a really big things for me. Usually I don’t like this. Even we support each other.

About my last post, I think I focus too much about looks. There is a saying, “Don’t judge book by its cover”. That’s true that it is hard to ignore someone’s attractive. But the person I met today, shows me. She has a bright face that everyone will like. In fact that she passed a lot of pain. To listen to her story, I feel so grateful. How can I complain my problem when someone had passed a bigger pain than mine. This world is too big compared to my problem. 

I re-read my book, Chicken Soup for The Soul “Life Lessons”. There is a research that forgiving can improve our life. To be honest, I still hold anger, or you can say grudge. Once, someone kicked and mocked my back. It gave me a lot back pain, and since that time, my scoliosis got worse. I often feel pain in that side got kicked before. So I always blame on that person, when I have back pain, my heart also hurts at the same time. Anger which is hard to be cope. I want to be open-minded. Living like that will make me as a bad person. I want to have better and meaningful life. 

So, just think about this.  

"If I have the strength to hold anger for that long, why don’t I use the strength to forgive? "

All is about our mind. This world may be full of problems. Let’s change it to this world may be full of blessings that we skipped. I want to create my positive world. Yes, I’m not an angel that will always be kind, or think positively all the time. What we can do is trying. Try.

One of my favourite quote. “You can’t stop the waves, but you can learn how to surf.” Then my favourite book says “Learn to accept what you can’t change, and try to change anything that you can change”.

So, that’s all for today ;)

 

Cinderella complex

Hey Darla.

Do you know? I take a look at my surroundings. Hmm. I wonder, everyone grows up. My school friends, my college friends, they all become prettier than before. Their hair is bright and styled well. They look more mature than last year. I wonder. How about me? Why I still stand here like nothing changed? Argh, maybe this is the effect of watching K-Drama too much. The girls in film grow up beautifully, and find their love.

Rethink and rethink.

Since I worked at night shift and got one incident in high school, I never want to appear attractive anymore. As I think that appear as a attractive girl will draw more attention, and more danger. I will be okay if I look not attractive at all. No one will even want to look at me and I will be safe. Is that a stupid thought? I just can’t think a single way to protect myself. I don’t know how to fight, my reflex is not good. So being a not attractive girl may be the best way to protect myself.

There is a saying that we can’t ignore attractive people. Yeah, I feel that. Being surrounded by attractive friends, I know how it feels when people pay more attention and want to have a talk with the attractive one than with me. Yeah, right. Who can ignore them? They are too eye-catching, shine bright like a diamond, like a sun. Then I’m just the shadow which is not important. People just talk to me when they need me. They start to talk with my attractive friends by praising them, then little chat, and so on. My attractive friends will smile brightly and say thank you. They look so friendly. I wonder how I look when I smile to my friends. Maybe like a ghost with monolid eyes and dark circles.

When my attractive friends once look not really pretty in the photo, people say “hm, no, actually they are really pretty”. When someone is not attractive like me look pretty in photo, people say “hm, camera 360 is really good. In the reality they are not this pretty.” Oh, come on. Why they don’t say “oh so actually she can be this pretty?” LOL. Sorry, I just wish.

You know, darla. It’s a bit funny. When I graduate from high school, I just imagine a wonderful life of a university student, a part-time worker. I will look more mature and gorgeous, as a woman. Then come the reality~ I have to go by public transport everyday at least 2 times a day. Sweat, sweat, and sweat. Even I try to let my hair down, just like another girl, I will become a lion soon. My dark circles love too much. Then I’m just like change from the sun to the shadow. Okay, a messy life.

Every girl in film, no matter whether they are rich, reckless, poor, good, or bad, they all find their time. When is my turn? When I should not try so hard to protect myself anymore? When I have to stop build this wall? When the song of Hannah Montana will be true? You know, the barefoot Cinderella song. One of my favourites. The prince said it’s okay barefoot Cinderella. Roar roarrr. Just tell me that I’m the one who being sensitive. Maybe I should stop watching those K-Drama. They are just drama, YES DRAMA, not real life.

Oh, Fera. WAKE UP!