Tidak semua anugerah datang
dengan dibungkus kertas kado. Beberapa dibungkus dengan kertas koran, atau
bahkan kertas bekas. Tapi itu tidak berarti itu bukan anugerah. Bahkan,
beberapa kado terbaik dari Tuhan datang dengan bungkusan yang usang.
-Merry Riana-
Sometimes things don’t work out well. Yeah, it’s true. Some
plans in my life runs not like what I expected, but it doesn’t mean my life is
ruined. I need to adjust myself and my expectations according to current
situation. For telling you the truth, I expected to graduate in this August.
Some troubles come out and try me. Then suddenly me lecturer asked me to join a
scientific seminar at my university to give a presentation of my research. I
was out of blue. Thinking of my defense table has already made me dying. In my
defense table day, I’m going to give a presentation in front of three lecturers
from my department. How about this scientific seminar again? Many lecturers and
many researchers took participated. The first time I got this news, I didn’t
know whether to be happy or nervous. The fact is, I was extremely happy and extremely
shocked. My body even trembled. What a stupid.
The deadline was closed. I tried to prepare my slides as
simple as possible, but I keep it interesting. Although I have fear with public
speaking, I always feel satisfied whenever I overcome this fear. I practiced
many times to put my words together. My lecturer gave me a hand by checking and
fixing a few parts of my slides. Thank you, bu Diah ^^
Here’s the day. 19th August 2015. Well, I put on
eyeliners to make myself a little bit more confident. I was very very very
nervous. The room is not as big as I think, but still, the presenters and the
professors kinda made me trembling. Hahaha. I don’t even know how many time I
took a deep breath to calm myself. When it was my turn, I shouted loudly inside
“Aaaaaaaaaaa”. When my slides were opened, a professor asked, “What is
scoliosis?” I calmly said that I will explained it in my presentation. I did my
presentation calmly without trembling. OMG. I was proud of myself. I usually
have my hand trembling at the beginning of presentation no matter I have done
many presentations in 4 years. I think I have changed, or it is because of the practices
I did. I was so happy that everyone paid attention to my presentation. My voice was stabile using the microphone. I
usually don’t like to use mic because my voice can be super loud. At the end of my presentation, I remind
everyone in the room to raise awareness of scoliosis. Right after I finished my
words, I could hear applauses. I received many positive feedbacks. It was
absolutely a great moment. I couldn’t stop smiling like a stupid. Lol.
I was amazed. If I weren’t a scolioser, I don’t think I will
never ever take this step. Giving a public speaking about my scoliosis was
never in my mind since I hated my scoliosis that much. When I try to change and
be more open about it, I feel like my life has also been changed. People offer
me a hand for my treatment. I have more sincere friends. I even dare to use scoliosis as my final
research paper. If I didn’t dare, I will never get this chance. It doesn’t matter I will win or not. I’ve
tried to bring out the best of me. Of course there are many people who can do
far better than me. Life never stops at one point. I can keep learning ^^ Thank
you God.
Btw, after finished my presentation, I went back to my
faculty and meet Fonds. Today was also her Yudisium day. Yudisium is a kind of
graduation celebration in our faculty ^^ Congratulation my dear. I am happy to
see you in that black-white suit. Wait to see you on your graduation day!