That Click!

Life never fails to surprise me.

I am very awkward when it comes to making new friends. Suprisingly, there are some people I can get along with in just a few times meeting, or even the first meeting. It feels like we have ever been friends since long time ago. We have that click. I believe in this click.

However, I also meet some people that I find it hard to get along with them no matter how hard I have tried or how many years we have known each other. Sometimes I wonder, too. Why I can't get along with them. Thank to my ignorant trait, it has never been a big deal for me because I easily forget my problem. Hahaha. 

I am grateful for those two types of people. The people who give me that 'click' feeling has taught me that I still can make new friends despite how awkward I am. I am very grateful to be able to meet a lot of good people in my life. For those people I hardly get along with, it does not mean that they are bad. Some of them are even actually very kind being. They teach me patience and universal love. We might not be people who share our life experience but I can learn to be kind to them. Maybe it is not that I can't get along with them, it just takes longer.

Everyone can be our teacher and everyone has a lesson to share with us. I am truly grateful that God keeps adding beautiful souls in my circle. Hopefully, I can learn to grow a beautiful soul inside me, too. Have a nice day, everyone! 🌻

What Has Covid-19 Taught You?

Hi Darla~

8^th June 2020.

Our Mother Earth has not recovered from this Covid-19, a virus that has taught us a lot of life lessons. We used to take everything for granted. We did not realize that everything in our lives has been a great gift since the beginning. It takes this pandemic to teach us.

This Covid-19 also brings the best yet the worst of us. This is not an easy situation. Everyone is facing their harsh reality. I am not here to judge yet we can use every chance to reflect. Is this situation trying to bring out the best part of me or I might turn out to miss my humanity?

Since beginning of April, I have been working from home. I am a truly home person. It is totally okay for me not to go to the shopping centers or hanging out with my friends. I enjoy my working in pyjamas and hair bun. Of course I do miss a lot of things. I used to talk to my students during weekdays and if we had holiday, the longest to separate with them was only 2-3 weeks. I used to be occupied by them. I used to scold them (😅), talk random things, from Boba to their games, spend my break time and lunch time with them, etc. Now it has been more than 2 months. I still meet them on the online class but the time is shorter and my interaction with them is very limited. We did not have enough time to chit chat. You know, being an educator is not only about what’s on the books. There is a lot of things we can share with them and they also have a lot of things to teach us. This interaction, I miss it, a lot. Not to mention they are going to the next level, I might no longer meet them. It is so heartbreaking that we cannot have proper farewell and I cannot give them big hugs (and my melancholic speech).

The other thing I miss is spending time with my workmates. My workmates have been amazing. I missed the times I had to go around and ask them what we would order for lunch. I missed the sharing time after teaching hours. When someone cooked or bought snack, we would share. When someone wanted to order stuffs from e-commerce, everyone might join you. We could argue, too. Arguing for unnecessary stuffs and we would laugh together again tomorrow. We still keep in touch and support each other during this online learning period. Things have not been easy. Teaching online is surely challenging and I spent like 3 times extra effort to prepare the materials and other tasks. It was extremely exhausted at the first month. Once I had my breakfast, I sat in front of the laptop until midnight. I only left the chair for toilet and food. Not to mention if we had deadlines, I might pull some nights. After a while, I managed to put things together and get my life back. I could not count how many times I inhale deeply to put myself together in some hard situations. I was like, “Okay, Fera. You are not alone. Things will get better soon.” Some tears had to flow to relieve myself. Sometimes, it’s okay not to be okay. I broke down and got up again. Standing tall and strong to continue this challenge. Thank God that I have my family as my core support, my workmates who are always willing to listen to my sharing, and my friends who still check on me at times.

Now, we are more aware when it comes to health. I easily get flu since I was little. I have a very sensitive nose, so I get running nose often. During this Covid-19, if I go out with my running nose, people might be scared to death, watching me sneezing here and there. I tried to take more supplements and enhance my natural healthy lifestyle. It is not as bad as how it is used to be. I decide to stay at home when I am not feeling well. I rarely go out anyway, during this Covid. I only go out for groceries shopping with my mother like once a week. My mother can’t stand me being OCD. We always shop at traditional market. We manage to always wear mask, keep physical distancing and use hand sanitizer. The problem of traditional market is just the payment. They only receive cash and we cannot avoid holding cash. Yeah, so here I am. OCD starts to develop. 😅

Ah, what I am very grateful is I still have chance to have my warm lunch and dinner together with my family. Usually, I was too mobile, going here and there and sometimes miss the meal with my family. You know, it feels like a sudden stop and you have more time to look around you. I can see what I have been missing and try to put things to its place.

We are half way to go to end this 2020. Things will be better if we keep trying. Let’s survive, Darla~ We have to stay safe and sane! One day, when you flashback to this Covid-19 period, you will be amazed, "Oh, wow! We went through that?!?" Let's treasure this moment.

How about you, what has Covid-19 taught you?



-Fera-